nourish itself with the beauty nature provides... overcome adversities that earth put forth... shelters the tired souls with the careless whispers of melodious chimes this good earth provides...
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Sunny Day
I have just started out on my first real job; Air Traffic Controller. Monday will be the start of my first course and for 3 months i will have to be hitting the books again. I hope those modules will be less taxing on the mind to allow me more time to do the video edittings for the wedding videos that i took recently. I really got nothing much to express other than waiting for my gal to call me, as i am typing the posts, to pick up the "BA ZHANG"(RICE DUMPLINGS). The only reason why i am posting this is to hope you listen to this song by CORRINE MAY "Let It Go". Yes! It wont make you feel better on bad day... The song has no theraputic effect, those sudden changes in moods comes only from the very conciousness of your private & secret emotions... This song only hopes to spur that conciousness of yours...
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Holi"DAY"
Hi all! For all those that has visited and seen that nothing new had been published, i would have to apologise for my laziness and unwillingness to the commitment to posting because too many things just filled my agenda.
From the day i posted the last one which was on the 14th, i had been to 2 trips; Bintan Angsana Resort and Tioman Paya Beach. I really love the the sun, sand but not so much the sea. After all the hype and excitement has sunk in, i am back in my melancholy mood. As much as i have very much to write about those places, i cannot express myself well enough in words. Nevertheless, effort shall be encourage by the ignorance of my linguistic abilities.
My trip to Bintan Angsana with Sandy made me appreciate a liitle more of her. I felt that having been together through these 8 years brought for us the chance to see the relationship develop in many different ways; as a friend, partner, and a couple. The problem in all relationship is the ability for it to last once the fiery passion of the charging hormones subsides. At least i never felt that way, i hope i never will. Every step in the past years that went along the way, we try the best we could to walk together and there are times when the path was a little difficult to track upon; i can still remember the every sunday night that she will accompany me at my place before i had to book in to my camp during national service. Those days were the saddest but at least she was there always. Even though i never really felt the importance of her then, i have to say i am really touch by all those little things she did for me which an immature sucker like me then would never appreciate. I feel so bastardly and sick of myself! Sorry babe! Such trips allows me to have a better understanding of the relationship and through these trips when the mind is relax, we are able to communicate more effectively and gets to do different things. Such experimentations are catalytic inducers that spurs the passion for the relationship. I hope to go on another trip with her and the next time i wish to be going to a winter melbourne and have a chocolate brownie under the warmth of the buring charcoal by the Yarra River upon the night sky...
My Tioman trip was with the willy, tua na, CB, and kah wee. Even though we are close friends, i never felt that there was a chance for a heart to heart talk about the stuffs we would like to know more about but feels shy to ask. Maybe we are not ready for it or the expressions of emotions for guys are generally tedious unless of course we are gays. We all had a good time playing soccer by the beach, snokerlling in a not so many fishes seas and swimming in a super small pool. Not forgetting the food we had at the restaurant and the way Liverpool snatch the game away from the hands of A.C Milan. Yes! How can i forget the many chicken burgers and milo or teh O ice! Shiok! I hope to have another trip with them or may be others can tag along the next time. The next time we may do exactly the very same things but we, however, may be a very different person already and i hope to get to know more about the different person.
From the day i posted the last one which was on the 14th, i had been to 2 trips; Bintan Angsana Resort and Tioman Paya Beach. I really love the the sun, sand but not so much the sea. After all the hype and excitement has sunk in, i am back in my melancholy mood. As much as i have very much to write about those places, i cannot express myself well enough in words. Nevertheless, effort shall be encourage by the ignorance of my linguistic abilities.
My trip to Bintan Angsana with Sandy made me appreciate a liitle more of her. I felt that having been together through these 8 years brought for us the chance to see the relationship develop in many different ways; as a friend, partner, and a couple. The problem in all relationship is the ability for it to last once the fiery passion of the charging hormones subsides. At least i never felt that way, i hope i never will. Every step in the past years that went along the way, we try the best we could to walk together and there are times when the path was a little difficult to track upon; i can still remember the every sunday night that she will accompany me at my place before i had to book in to my camp during national service. Those days were the saddest but at least she was there always. Even though i never really felt the importance of her then, i have to say i am really touch by all those little things she did for me which an immature sucker like me then would never appreciate. I feel so bastardly and sick of myself! Sorry babe! Such trips allows me to have a better understanding of the relationship and through these trips when the mind is relax, we are able to communicate more effectively and gets to do different things. Such experimentations are catalytic inducers that spurs the passion for the relationship. I hope to go on another trip with her and the next time i wish to be going to a winter melbourne and have a chocolate brownie under the warmth of the buring charcoal by the Yarra River upon the night sky...
My Tioman trip was with the willy, tua na, CB, and kah wee. Even though we are close friends, i never felt that there was a chance for a heart to heart talk about the stuffs we would like to know more about but feels shy to ask. Maybe we are not ready for it or the expressions of emotions for guys are generally tedious unless of course we are gays. We all had a good time playing soccer by the beach, snokerlling in a not so many fishes seas and swimming in a super small pool. Not forgetting the food we had at the restaurant and the way Liverpool snatch the game away from the hands of A.C Milan. Yes! How can i forget the many chicken burgers and milo or teh O ice! Shiok! I hope to have another trip with them or may be others can tag along the next time. The next time we may do exactly the very same things but we, however, may be a very different person already and i hope to get to know more about the different person.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
A Day Without Rain
I just love this piece of music so much... This is from Enya's album a day without rain. The lyrics is from one of the song or music "Pilgrim". Reflects the struggles we go through each day to find the reasons for the things we are doing or have done, the routes we took that lead to our dreams... Or are those just the prophecies foretold by others in the life we have lived or will be living...
I really like this piece of music... Strangely this song seems so abt and really fits into my life like a jig... Isn't it a nice feeling to know that someone out there share the same feelings as you are and these feelings really transcient everything we have known... We share the same thoughts and whisper them in this beautiful forest i call my home...
Have a nice hot drink(coffee for me), dim the lights and enjoy this piece which last for about 2 minutes... Please spare me the time... Hope you would appreciate what i truly enjoy!
Pilgrim
Pilgrim, how you journey on the road you chose
To find out where the winds die and where the stories go
All days come from one day that you must know
You cannot change what's over but only where you go
One way leads to diamonds, one way leads to gold
Another leads you only to everything you're told
In your heart you wonder which of these is true;
The road that leads to nowhere, the road that leads to you
Will you find the answer in all you say and do?
Will you find the answer in you?
Each heart is a pilgrim
Each one wants to know the reason why the winds die
And where the stories go
Pilgrim, in your journey you may travel far
For pilgrim it's a long way to find out who you are...
Pilgrim, it's a long way to find out who you are...
What a nice piece of work to behold... Shiok right?
I really like this piece of music... Strangely this song seems so abt and really fits into my life like a jig... Isn't it a nice feeling to know that someone out there share the same feelings as you are and these feelings really transcient everything we have known... We share the same thoughts and whisper them in this beautiful forest i call my home...
Have a nice hot drink(coffee for me), dim the lights and enjoy this piece which last for about 2 minutes... Please spare me the time... Hope you would appreciate what i truly enjoy!
Pilgrim
Pilgrim, how you journey on the road you chose
To find out where the winds die and where the stories go
All days come from one day that you must know
You cannot change what's over but only where you go
One way leads to diamonds, one way leads to gold
Another leads you only to everything you're told
In your heart you wonder which of these is true;
The road that leads to nowhere, the road that leads to you
Will you find the answer in all you say and do?
Will you find the answer in you?
Each heart is a pilgrim
Each one wants to know the reason why the winds die
And where the stories go
Pilgrim, in your journey you may travel far
For pilgrim it's a long way to find out who you are...
Pilgrim, it's a long way to find out who you are...
What a nice piece of work to behold... Shiok right?
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Sunday Morning Rain
How nice for it to have rain on a sunday morning... Bet all of you guys and gals are lying cool in your bed with the sweetest dreams. Have not been sleeping well. The busy examination and Final Year Project month was keeping my mind so darn alert. Wonder what will happen when i become an air traffic controller! Guess i would have to sleep with my eyes open and teeth grinded. Sipritually, physically and mentally, i have drained.
Hace not been feeding my brain and keeping my mind keen on the religous stuffs i would like to read up on... may be the next book i will pick up will be "understanding islam"... I like to know more about the other religions to gain a better understanding of how religions can generate an ensemble of loyal believers and made them all believe the world revolves just around that religion. I have read this book "when religions becomes evil" and one of the points that came out and hit me strongly is when the religion preaches the absolute truth theory... That is only their religion and theirs alone is the one true way to god... i feel that such stance would create a "i m right, you are wrong" thinking... maybe the fact is "we are all right" and it just so happens we believe in a different version of the same history that was read to us in a different way... i hope to read more...
Oh yes! I guess the teachers of today is really going to have a rough time... I saw a sweet secondary school girl boosting about the fanciful vulgar language that she so politely delivered to her teacher... She felt that the teacher deserved it... Oh my god... what has happen to my world... Are the youths leading a hard time? Do they really have so much of deprivation and frustrations that needed to be vented on some poor souls who really wanted to help them do well? i have been a teacher and i know the stressful nature of the work and believe me... i was really quite depress for a while... for you guys who doubted the stressfulness of the job please go and try it then help me deal with the shit... even though i had an easy class but i guess i expected too much out of myself... hope my air traffic career will be a little more manageable...
"i feel fat!" Really need a good work out... sunday moring should have been soccer but the guys rae all so busy recently and none have time for a good game of soccer... tomorrow may be gym day and have not been torturing my biceps, triceps, and all the "xxx"ceps that ever needed to be pump up shall be accomplished soon... i hope...
I wish only for a dear friend of mine to quit smoking.... i really do... he says he wanna do it after the exams but it seems to me that he really does not want to... i have given my coffee but he is still with his little stick that eats his life away... Let wish for this poor soul to find the courage soon to stop...
Hace not been feeding my brain and keeping my mind keen on the religous stuffs i would like to read up on... may be the next book i will pick up will be "understanding islam"... I like to know more about the other religions to gain a better understanding of how religions can generate an ensemble of loyal believers and made them all believe the world revolves just around that religion. I have read this book "when religions becomes evil" and one of the points that came out and hit me strongly is when the religion preaches the absolute truth theory... That is only their religion and theirs alone is the one true way to god... i feel that such stance would create a "i m right, you are wrong" thinking... maybe the fact is "we are all right" and it just so happens we believe in a different version of the same history that was read to us in a different way... i hope to read more...
Oh yes! I guess the teachers of today is really going to have a rough time... I saw a sweet secondary school girl boosting about the fanciful vulgar language that she so politely delivered to her teacher... She felt that the teacher deserved it... Oh my god... what has happen to my world... Are the youths leading a hard time? Do they really have so much of deprivation and frustrations that needed to be vented on some poor souls who really wanted to help them do well? i have been a teacher and i know the stressful nature of the work and believe me... i was really quite depress for a while... for you guys who doubted the stressfulness of the job please go and try it then help me deal with the shit... even though i had an easy class but i guess i expected too much out of myself... hope my air traffic career will be a little more manageable...
"i feel fat!" Really need a good work out... sunday moring should have been soccer but the guys rae all so busy recently and none have time for a good game of soccer... tomorrow may be gym day and have not been torturing my biceps, triceps, and all the "xxx"ceps that ever needed to be pump up shall be accomplished soon... i hope...
I wish only for a dear friend of mine to quit smoking.... i really do... he says he wanna do it after the exams but it seems to me that he really does not want to... i have given my coffee but he is still with his little stick that eats his life away... Let wish for this poor soul to find the courage soon to stop...