Came across a book lately. A chinese book about "letting go". Letting go as in learning to see things in lighter moods and not be too hard on yourself. I like the way things were presented in the book, but i reckon it is going to be an easy task to "let go".
We did not grow up fighting hard for what we want and end up having to let go? Tough act to follow. We have pride we cannot swallow. We have love ones we cannot let go. We have friends to share your troubled soul. We want things (Cars, Condos, Credit cards, PSP, DS Lite, Plasma tv...). Many things in fact. We hang on to the pursuit of things, the pursuit of love.
Many events happened since the last time i blog. The last time happened to be my birthday. Many emotions were experienced in the 2 months that passed. I still cannot let go. Especially the passing of my grandma. The tinge of sadness lingers whenever the thought arises. The thought of her passing. I held her hands and they were cold. I tried to be strong but emotions poured. She will never carry me the way she did long time ago. I can never ride the bicycle and hold her tight as she cycles me to school. She can no longer bargain for a small t-shirt for me at toys-r-us. Warm tears roll as letters stutter. I am gald i finally have the courage to talk about it on my blog. Maybe it is a closure for me. Its has just been 49 days since her passing and all the rites have been done. "Let go"? Is it really possible? I tried hard but do not think so.