Let go. Let go?

Came across a book lately. A chinese book about "letting go". Letting go as in learning to see things in lighter moods and not be too hard on yourself. I like the way things were presented in the book, but i reckon it is going to be an easy task to "let go".

We did not grow up fighting hard for what we want and end up having to let go? Tough act to follow. We have pride we cannot swallow. We have love ones we cannot let go. We have friends to share your troubled soul. We want things (Cars, Condos, Credit cards, PSP, DS Lite, Plasma tv...). Many things in fact. We hang on to the pursuit of things, the pursuit of love.

Many events happened since the last time i blog. The last time happened to be my birthday. Many emotions were experienced in the 2 months that passed. I still cannot let go. Especially the passing of my grandma. The tinge of sadness lingers whenever the thought arises. The thought of her passing. I held her hands and they were cold. I tried to be strong but emotions poured. She will never carry me the way she did long time ago. I can never ride the bicycle and hold her tight as she cycles me to school. She can no longer bargain for a small t-shirt for me at toys-r-us. Warm tears roll as letters stutter. I am gald i finally have the courage to talk about it on my blog. Maybe it is a closure for me. Its has just been 49 days since her passing and all the rites have been done. "Let go"? Is it really possible? I tried hard but do not think so.

【今年的蛋糕】

【今年的蛋糕】
你说今年的礼物需要很多时间来准备。漫不经心的我重复一样的问题，想要知道。你的坚持有如魔法师的催眠，催眠我漫长的一无所知。

最近，有一些事情让我有了一点伤。眼泪没了已往的坚忍不拔，心也尝了柠檬酸。有你的体谅，迂回了伤心情。我的生日3月20日。我想你有很多的想法，让我可以尝尽甜甜的爱与温暖。我也感觉强烈。

我在家。一家人吃了晚餐，切了生日蛋糕。

我拿起了手机，传了讯息；I still at home... Eating my cake at 9... So will reach your place around 930? ;)

在你家门外徘徊，等你的出现。你的眼眶泛了泪光。

原来今年的礼物是蛋糕。


“傻女孩，你每天的温柔让我逐渐深陷。你不经意，小小的举动，我会开心数夜数天。 蛋糕的滋味吃是嘴里，甜是心里。就算不吃，也可成为 11 年来的经典。今年的蛋糕是我 28 年以来吃过，第一个有人为我而特别精心自制的。她的甜味，你的爱，我留在心中数夜数天 。”

A Traveller's Tale

I have travelled to Nepal and Melbourne during the first 2 months of this year. These 2 places totally different in cultures and in sights. Experiences in these places also differ. I shall share with you guys the things that i have seen and felt during the trip. Do not worry, there will not be overwhelming outpouring of emotions but rather a practical narration of the experiences that i share with 2 different people.

Nepal:
Himalayan SwayambunathTrekking

Home of the Himalayans ranges. The magnificence of the mountain still amazes me. Everest sits high and mighty amongst its brothers.

Lumbini is the birth place of the Buddha. The sacred land of which the religion of buddhism bored the first seed that brought salvations to many.

Trekking in Nepal brought new and fresh perspective to my travelling experience. Due to the wintry conditions, we were not able to fully appreciate the beauty of the picturesque himalayan mountains on our trek. On the plane back home, i came across a quote that goes something like this:

"... the best part of travelling lies in its unpredictability... the uncertainty of which you may not see what you came to seek... that's the beauty of nature and that of travelling... it leaves you wanting more, the lure of its beauty makes you hungrier..."

And of course with a good travel khaki,

Melbourne:

2 must do things in Melbourne. Visit Philip Island and travel the Great Ocean Road. Sights and beauty totally different from that of Nepal. Love that contrast between these 2 places. One of which is "mountain-ful" and the other rushed upon by laps of ocean surfs.

12 apostles, Great Ocean Road Philip Island, Penguin Parade

And of course with lots of love,

公元前后

回到公元前灰白陈旧 古罗马
寒冬腊月 冬耕小农夫在浩叹
铜墙铁壁 在窗旁 婢女含泪 思君曲
雪霜离愁 临别一眼 已五个秋冬

公元1993 四季为秋 岛屿风情 你我是谁
孤傲文静 班上角落 嘴角微笑 什么滋味
播了相思子 虽怠慢萌芽 但没忘记了期待

十余秋 翻开回忆五斗柜
古罗马淡忘谁 千年路成全了谁
镜花水月 在芬芳 在皎洁 易闪开
枯花残月 虽有泪光 有遗憾
实实在在 慢不慌 爱不慌

Money and everything else over sex??

Just today i read a article in the newpaper about Singaporeans choosing money, time with close ones, health, leisure time over sex. Can this be a true reflection of the mental state of Singaporeans? I am curious. I would like to do a snap poll among my friends to check if this is true but i think i shall decide against it.

Firstly, the poll which i may put up will be biase because of my sample population. Sample population means the group of people that will be subjected to the polls. My beastly friends will definitely put sex on the top of their list!! Hahahaha!! But then again, that's generalistion and would not put my friends in good light and it would put me in a spot for thinking that all my friends are all sexually deprived monsters!!

Secondly, people might not give a truthful answer. Singaporeans though globally exposed are still conservative. To choose sex over other aspects would make them seems less hardworking, unfilal or even unhealthy. Common! If someone ask you to choose from the 5 choices above and you si bei buay pai seh and go choose SEX!! You are making yourself look bad what? Hahaha!!

Frankly speaking, i don't know how to choose between them. I guess i would choose more leisure time so that i can meet up with my close ones, then allocated some of the leisure time for sex, and then allocated some of the leisure time to earn extra bucks like giving tuition, and then allocated some of the leisure time to do exercise. Steady. One stone kills all birds!

But as we all working adult know... leisure time belongs to the boss.