Tiong Bahru Bangawan Solo Philo Lesson

Me, Willy, Youyi were sitting down at Bangawan solo having the late afternoon tea. We were wondering how one of our friends is coping with his "new-found" and "reborn" life. We shared the same view as each other and we were all at least going in the same direction as each other. With no opposition to fire away its side of the story, it made our views seem so right and just and philosophical!!

We have a friend, who seems to have changed, but shades of his yester years remains and who seems to be the same, but have changed. We are confused, or is he? Has it been tough for him? Supressed feelings maybe? Thinking twice about doing things?

Are we the ignorant ones? Probably so. Much was said but little was remembered. However much that was said, little will change.

"You all wont understand" as they always love to claim. But did you ever try to help us understand? I would love to know... Or maybe there wasn't anything at all to understand.

自痺

It seems like a sad love posting... but it really is not... Read on please... It is important!

我拒絕異常現象
希望一切如同往常
平淡會少一點傷

我拒絕擁抱
對愛距離抱持一定
像一雙筷子 靠近卻不在一起

我的世界 自己對自己
不要來打擾 不要來試著了解
以為你會明白 你不會

我自己對著自己
我表達 我明白
你永遠無法喚醒已經沉睡痲痺的感覺

你那像滿園子里枯落的葉 的眼淚
我不能體會 不能感覺
不要哭 不要浪費眼淚
冷冷的心對待你的心碎

如果我是自痺 以上的表達不能畫上據點
也沒有開始的機緣 為你落一滴淚

The above post reflects my feelings for the people with autism. Never enough that i write could ever express the feelings they have and the hardships and struggles they go though every single day. I hope the posting would be able to raise some awareness among my friends about autism. Got the inspirations from a show on channel U or channel 8 recently about autistic people and it affected me badly enough to want to share my thoughts and how i feel.

These shows made me realise just how lucky i am. To have to just experience 1% of what the parents and the autistic child go through would have severely crippled me. What am i to continue pursuing the seemingly "important" things in my life? Maybe they will have a less significant importance from now on? I don't really know. I may fall back to the realm of darkness, into the depths of trying hard to achieve something that always remain elusive...

For the moment it set my sights shorter, and it is a good thing. I feel less need to walk further when i see nearer. I take a step at a time at my pace enjoying the sceneries along the way. I don't want to play the games you guys play. It makes me very tired sometimes. I want to rest...

Ringings in the ears

I got ringings in my ears...

It must be about work... A kind of screwed up work. A work whereby the sensory limits of human capabilities are stretched and you still have to pay attention to people nagging and shouting at you. You know they want you to do well and they don't want to scold you for nothing but it seems that once they get into the high of giving you "advice" they no longer have a slightest intend to stop. I got no excuses for my cocked up work and i fully deserved the reprimands of the instructors but sometimes i just hope they stop after a while to let me think; if i am still able to by then. I cannot hear well most probably hindered by the constant ringing in my ear drums pumped up with the fustrated instructors' breath. It still is ringing... I hope it would discontinue for a while...

I hope my work will get a little better in time to come. I really do hope so. Just so the ringing in my ears would stop...

"Alections 2006" -- The "Worked" Party

My fellow Singaporeans,

The days leading up to 6th May are important and critical ones. An important decision will rest upon your shoulders to decide which party is to lead the nation into the future. A future no one can predict of, yet the masses of white termites seems to suggest it is going to be better with them around. Wrong! ("Gek Say A Bit By Shouting Out")

After the 2001 elections, they "Buay Pai Say" any anyhow increase the fares of public transport. I have to pay additions of so much more just to travel short distances. Times must have erased some of your angst but let me remind you! ("Gek Say A Bit By Shouting Out Again"). Remember the days where they are things called the "Feeder Services". Today, where are they? All changed to become air-con buses taking us short distances charging us 65cents. That is 85% increase over the days where they cost only 35cents. "Elic Lowe" with strong accounting background can count so can i man! He check other peoples' account somemore! If only PM is willing to be as open about the minister's paycheck...

AH TIO!! One more thing... GST!! Increase to 5% somemore. It's definitely going to go up and it is going to affect people. Seriously! Why do Ministers say it is necessary for them to go up so that the economy can function properly? Because they take home a lot of money and 5% to them is chicken feet man! How about the poorer Singaporeans? You think by giving them 500 dollars the government can help them tide through 5 freaking years of GST?

Government give progress packges. But the rich also get the money! They take a little bit less then the poorer Singaporeans. But you think the money matters to them(Rich)? No what! But the government says they have to be fair to all and then all get. The poor get about a few hundred more. It is almost sure that some poor people get same or even less than the richer comrades. So my fellow Singaporean do the right thing! Give the termites a wake up call!

We are fighting an uphill battle. The weapons we uses is lousy SAW where as the termites are attacking us will GPMG machine gun. They throw upgarding carrot almost every "Alections". Let me tell you! I listen liao also want to vomit. Sorry, I must try to be as refine in my speech if not i will be sued and they will play back tape and record my voice without me knowing. Fantastic! SI BEI THERE!! Back to upgrading... Mr "Mak" Chiam upgraded his flats with seeming $2 million less than and the residents NO NEED TO CO-PAY!! Why the unfair tactics? In first world politics, even gound is where all is being fought. Do not dangle they ungrading carrot often. It pisses people off. You mean people in "HowGang" and "Proton Pratsay" not Singaporeans? If you want first class opposition you have to be first class in attitude first. That is the fact of life as what the MM said that he cannot help oppositions win votes by upgrading their flats. That in itself is not a world class endeavour. I address all as Singaporeans and all shall be equal no matter where you stay and who you support. Paying for the lift upgrading is paying for the mistakes that the government failed to forsee when they build the flats. They expected people to eat "Chang Sheng Bu Lau" medicine and remain fit forever. Now they are asking us to pay for their gross oversight. How fair is it? Why not pay us when ministers gain back their pay cuts? We are the ones who worked to get the economy back on track. We have worked long enough.

The "WORKED" Party

This Moment In Phuket ( Kata Beach )

Hey all,
This very moment i am at Kata Beach Phuket typing this blog message which i speculate would be a very short one because i have only 9 minutes of time left in this coffee house. Time is running out. To make things worse, Sandy made a mess by spilling out a quater cuppa of my Latte ontop the table. Time check: 0754 left.

She just left the table to wash her hands. I had great fun here looking at beach babes and BIG PAPAYAS. To be honest they do not look good: to the extent of disgusting. The beach is beautiful, the ocean fantastic, the room comfy and the scenery leaves me wanting. Time check: 5:00 left.

I should most probably end now. If not there will not be enough time to save this page for upload. Love ya guys.

From:
The Beach Hunk of Kata Beach
Handsome Png