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Guess i should do some updating after such a long while... i am in the computer cluster now and dont seems to have any stories to share... Recent times have been of Human Resource, Materials for engineers, automation in manufacturing... I feel like puking! It really is ridiculous when you are going to work as an air traffic controller and the last few subjects you are taking are no where near your job scope! I will be taking out my notes in a few minutes time and while i will be reading them, the feeling i get will only be that of "IRONY"!! May be the world i lived in is ironic to the extent of being ridiculous... Or may be i have reached a cross road where taking the first step towards one route causes me to drool at the prospects of the other... Imagine going to an interview and think about trying to land our hands at other jobs! HA...ironic isn't it? We have always hear things like "go do what you want", "believe in yourself", "aim and achieve". BUT those are only on the pretext that you already know what you want! The problem is: I know NUTS about what i want...
Why must everything have pros and cons? Can't they be straight forward? Makes life easier if things are less complicated and we do not have to content with what we will be missing out. Example? Chasing the sexy bloke and forgoing the chance to go out with the beautiful ones! Life is like an oversized menu... We go to restuarants pondering what to eat, come to school choosing what subjects to take, go shopping choosing what shoes to buy, live our lives choosing who to walk besides... Never can we be contented because there are always other choices... Choices that gives you another shot at a different life altogether and to not live that different life is really to crave for it, isn't it?
I would love for an exciting life but sometimes it is really not possible unless i live another one... Maybe being contented is enough but it never is going to really convince me... i will just have to suffer the fate of my choices... Though not all my choices are bad, some however are that of uncertainties... Should i stand at the cross road and wait for the sexy bloke and the beautiful lady to come? Or bash my way out looking for the unexplored? No one can give me any inkling as to what i have to deal with... I hope it is not too much...
After reading this, you will feel that the above gives you nothing at all. You will not take anything away from it and it will not value add you... "Life just dont value add you in any way... If it does, you should feel enriched, but that is never going to be the case because for everything that you try to achieve, you left some down the road that fails to get picked up..."For that, this post is just nothing.... So discard everthing that you have read and "Go ahead to get what you want!"...
"what you cannot get is what you would most ultimately wished to pocess"
"Grass is always greener on the other side..."

目不转睛

这首歌献给你…
每一次想到我们还在恋爱
我都会笑的有一点开心
你让我在喧哗都市“目不转睛”…

小人物

我没有想过要把自己的见解塞满谁的脑袋
我没有想过要去侵犯谁的敏感地代
我的思维再细腻也只是为了合乎自己的情绪
就算是在怎么不堪一击
道出的都是自己经历的人生戏剧
伟大的事留给别人去忙碌
周遭的小小事务我来全情投入
独木桥的不拥挤
我想我能走出自己
阳光大道散发的光芒
我害怕会被刺伤
在人生的路途上
知己难寻
我有的猪朋狗友让我珍惜于关心
风花雪月的爱情我不谈过
简简单单的爱比较适合心情
今天到回家的感觉竟是这几天来
最快乐的事家的咖啡
溢出一些些温暖的可贵
这就是我的世界
我应该说是小人物的世界。。。

Simplicity

This is

simplicity....












..........

True Colours

Its 1445 now. Just had my bath and feeling all nice and clean. Its been a busy morning with no time for self reflection. I guess now seems to be the perfect timing. The process of reflecting made easier with this song playing out from my Altec lansing speakers...

"you with the sad eyes, dont be discourage...
Oh i realise,
its hard to take courage in a world full of people...
you can lose sight of it all...
and the darkness inside you
makes you feel so small..."

The last time i was doing something that i really like was the MTV video i made. It took me a long time to conceptualise and played with the software but it was really good... I feel good when i show it to my friends but it was especially sweet when your gal like what you have done...

I have not been doing things i would like to do for some time now. My final year project needs some rushing... My HRM project just got a whole new meaning today... The past week was littered with the notes that talked about paradigm shifts, diversities, learning imperative... They seem like the ocassional rainfalls recently that dampen the forest fires raging my passion for things l love to do in my life...

Maybe life is about making choices and conforming to some expectations of you in society... You can never really make the best choice but rather the choice that hurts you the least...

"Show me smiling...
don't be unhappy cant remember
when I last saw you laughing...
if this world makes you crazy...
and you've taken all you can bear...
you call me up...
because you know I'll be there..."

When was the last time you laugh hard without having to think about the unfinished work in the lab or the unstudied materials or the huge pile of work? What does it means to be really happy?
I guess i will always wander in this wispering forest searching for the right answer... Aren't there times when you laugh hard but ironically you asked yourself; i am laughing now, but do i really feel the happiness that is supose to come with this laughter?

How can i see my true colours? The true colours of the rainbows of life, of happiness, of all that matters?

"But I see your true colours shining through...
I see your true colors...
your true colors are beautiful like a rainbow..."

你落默的眼神,
到底隐藏了多少暗淡心酸。
你被世界驳回的勇气，
找到回心转意的借口吗？
我们在人群中走散，
为何越是用心越是灰暗。

我想还是微一微笑吧，
上一次的欢欣有了点陌生，
我们牵起它的小掌心，
道出一些些欢欣。

世界的七色彩红，
让它彩绘灰暗的心房。
绿草树木下乘一乘凉，
勇气也能恢复自然。
人群中也有我来陪伴，
路途还是好远，
我不会有放气你的想法。
TRUE COLORS SHINING THROUGH YOU