雪糕

一口雪糕 苦了口
一句过话 闻风丧意

滋味是心情的电影
道出莫明其妙 我的懵懂 还是谁的任性

是在何时雪糕苦了我
是为了何事雪糕冰冻得我害怕碰
谁不想让事事甜甜也随心所欲
随遇而安 是没有勉强 不想太多得过
就算没了完美爱情电影过 也有女孩谈谈风

滋味是心情的电影
道出莫明其妙 我的懵懂 还是谁的任性

我没风度 不懂讨好要怎么说
因为我觉得我没错 还是不懂错
孤单不被理会 不是你 不是我
是你和我之间的 无奈

结果雪糕一口都没碰

Our time. Religions

The meaning of religion, through the search from the internet bears 4 meanings;

1) Belief in and reverence for a supernatural power or powers regarded as creator and governor of the universe.
2) A personal or institutionalized system grounded in such belief and worship.
3) The life or condition of a person in a religious order.
4) A set of beliefs, values, and practices based on the teachings of a spiritual leader.
5) A cause, principle, or activity pursued with zeal or conscientious devotion.

Science and religion co-existed peacefully till the turn of the 19th century. Much of the unknowns of the universe were explained and accepted by the people. The advent of the industrialisation and enlightenment brought differentiation and turmoils to the peaceful co-existence of the words. Science began its journey of experimentations, methodical and theoretical explanations of the universe. Religions seems to have stop moving all together.

We began to doubt things that cannot be proven by science. We see to believe. Religions took the very first meaning stated in (1). Even so, much of the universe still could not be explained by science but the explosion of knowledge gain through the years of enlightenment enpowered us with critical thinking and the realisation that much of the explaining of the universe can only be gain through tried and tested methods rather than the words and wisdom of scared men centuries before.

Much remains as it is till recent times when religion became a tool. A tool for terrorist. A call through the twisted promulgation of doctrines that summon its people to rise against their enemies. Many innnocent people were killed in bombs attacks. Chaos. Wars waged and fought. Chaos. Many people joined the twisted cause. Many more joined the twisted cause. Many got involved. Koreans even. Religion has become (2) (3) (4) (5).

People don't lose faith easily. Look at the way Singaporeans bet religiously at 4-D and Toto and you will realise how strong the faith of people can be. Why is it that people have a lesser inkling towards religions in our time. Many are free thinkers, atheists. They renounce religion. They have their own set of rules and way of life. Have religions lose their appeal? Have we become smarter? So much smarter that we do not need religion to help us understand the way things are and live our way of life the way it is?

Flip the papers, read the news. The trend of the society moving into a state of lawlessness jolt me into the realisation that the world has become a far more dangerous place. A living hell. Laws are in place for the deterence of criminal acts by the consequence of punishment. Religions, without regards to twisted onces, promotes morality that prevent even the advent of that evil thought. In our time, religion is not supernatural but the undersatanding that morality has to be pursued with zeal and devotion. Morality in not about faith. It is about the very existence of our human existence. The only little thinkling in us that still make us sane is our morality, a deriative of religions.

"Please Don't Call Me! I Don't Want to Come Back!"

Must be quite a loud title to the start of posting...

I am in a job
I am not totally in love with

Please don't call me
I want my days to laze
Please don't call me
Shades of shyness engulf me when "No, i cannot!" is all that I can say
When you call me I don't really like it
in fact i dislike it a lot

Please don't call me
I am not rich but i don't need that extra filth to fill my anguish
Please don't call me
Sitting my the roadside stall having my coffee and mee pok fills me better
than the extra filth set forth by the ringing of the till

Coz,
I am in a job
I am not really in love with
Please don't call me!!

Any one who can rap this or put some rythm in for me who be nice.

Let go. Let go?

Came across a book lately. A chinese book about "letting go". Letting go as in learning to see things in lighter moods and not be too hard on yourself. I like the way things were presented in the book, but i reckon it is going to be an easy task to "let go".

We did not grow up fighting hard for what we want and end up having to let go? Tough act to follow. We have pride we cannot swallow. We have love ones we cannot let go. We have friends to share your troubled soul. We want things (Cars, Condos, Credit cards, PSP, DS Lite, Plasma tv...). Many things in fact. We hang on to the pursuit of things, the pursuit of love.

Many events happened since the last time i blog. The last time happened to be my birthday. Many emotions were experienced in the 2 months that passed. I still cannot let go. Especially the passing of my grandma. The tinge of sadness lingers whenever the thought arises. The thought of her passing. I held her hands and they were cold. I tried to be strong but emotions poured. She will never carry me the way she did long time ago. I can never ride the bicycle and hold her tight as she cycles me to school. She can no longer bargain for a small t-shirt for me at toys-r-us. Warm tears roll as letters stutter. I am gald i finally have the courage to talk about it on my blog. Maybe it is a closure for me. Its has just been 49 days since her passing and all the rites have been done. "Let go"? Is it really possible? I tried hard but do not think so.

【今年的蛋糕】

【今年的蛋糕】
你说今年的礼物需要很多时间来准备。漫不经心的我重复一样的问题，想要知道。你的坚持有如魔法师的催眠，催眠我漫长的一无所知。

最近，有一些事情让我有了一点伤。眼泪没了已往的坚忍不拔，心也尝了柠檬酸。有你的体谅，迂回了伤心情。我的生日3月20日。我想你有很多的想法，让我可以尝尽甜甜的爱与温暖。我也感觉强烈。

我在家。一家人吃了晚餐，切了生日蛋糕。

我拿起了手机，传了讯息；I still at home... Eating my cake at 9... So will reach your place around 930? ;)

在你家门外徘徊，等你的出现。你的眼眶泛了泪光。

原来今年的礼物是蛋糕。


“傻女孩，你每天的温柔让我逐渐深陷。你不经意，小小的举动，我会开心数夜数天。 蛋糕的滋味吃是嘴里，甜是心里。就算不吃，也可成为 11 年来的经典。今年的蛋糕是我 28 年以来吃过，第一个有人为我而特别精心自制的。她的甜味，你的爱，我留在心中数夜数天 。”