FOG

Creating some posts for the sake of creating them takes much pain and awkwardness. Here i am indulging in the feels of them with the song "COLD" by Matchbox 20 playing in the background. A damn lousy song which i had chosen to spoil my sureal morning... Shit! I hate it!
My life had been full of choices and to decide upon the routes to take made me realised that i had to contend and then lived with the decisions i made. A bad song that spoils my morning would be one of such unsuspected outcomes i am already living with. Minor it may seems, but the logic applies to the bigger things of my life; just that the analogy is simpler here.

I am trying to find the right words to type into the blog and finding only this sentence which happens to be the one that i most often used. Much of my blog pieces do really start with not knowing what to type and then finally writing huge chunks of idealistically unpractical blogs. If i really have nothing to write, the blog piece should just end in NO words! It should not even have anything on! The blog should not even have started. Irony... I guess we creatures are confused beings trying to find our way in these thick fog of whispering forrests. At least for me, i am confused but i still manages to lie through my teeth everytime i say i got nothing to blog about and then come up with something... Amazing!

In recent times i have discovered the stubborness in my nature. Stubborness in beliefs rather than in character. Yes! i believe they are different if your next question is "what's the diff?". I am an easying going guy and willng to try and follow the things my friends suggests or do even if i have some reluctance to. That stubborness in character i do not have. However, the stubborness of beliefs is really strong in me. This has become a weakness that i have recently found covered in a layer of thick crismson blood beneath my heart. i have always hold true to my own ideas about religious beliefs and love to challenge the fundamental ideas of them. I find myself losing the gound every time. Reason? I do not have the arsenal of knowledge to combat them. If some day i really do have the weapon of mass destruction to overcome them, i would already have been with them and be with their cause. Ha! Amazing yah? My stubborn beliefs had blinded me against the words of others. I was like a glass full of red wine unwilling to be filled at all. We all know that to learn we have to be like an empty glass, but how many of you guys due to the stubborness in your beliefs have refused to even allow the occurance for the chance to test and accept other beliefs and thoughts? That stubborness in my own beliefs narrowed the way i view my way of life a.k.a my religion, my behaviours and actions. I am glad that i have finally come out of such a fog and my whispering forest becomes clear once more...

"If you do not finish the post or feel in anyway that this post is rubbish... the stubborness in your beliefs would have fog up my whispering forests.." Morgan