Contradictions

Things seems to have been happening so extremely fast that i am still somewhat lost as the school term started... Haven't really feel the full effects of the work load yet and is lucky enough to still seems to be still able to hang around and steal a couple of moments to indulge myself in things that i really like to do... Hope this will be the case for the rest of the year. But to be in the comfort zone for such a long time is situation i dont really want to be in. Guess the next term ahead will be full of excitement and unknowns...

The unpredictabilty of life itself is intriguing and exciting but at the same time you will feel extremely vulnerable to the subject itself. Every move that we make leads us somewhere, the question here is where does it leads us to? The destination of course is something that we can at times predict but never be definite about and that itself is frustrating. So many a times we decided to just do our best and let life be! Hey hold it man! There is a problem here...
Why then do we complain about the unfairness of life? Questions like:

"how can a coffee lady strike a 2.38million lottery?"
" how can the lucky bastards be so freaking rich?"
"why ain't i in the deans' list?"
"what is such a sexy gal with the strange man?"
"Where the silver spoon in my mouth supose to be?"
"Why do i like her so much and she does not recipocrate?" never fails to crop up time and again in our minds...

Most of the time it just to let of some steam and then we will be back again running to rush the datelines and carry on with the normal routine and start to forget about all those things till the next time they crop up... The cycle goes on and on.... Can we break this cycle of thought and fully realised the very essence of existence? This is the one of those open ended questions that many people hold different views about never will there be a best answer to it...
As diverse as the question is our views about life itself , we will never ever make the best choice because it always seems that the grass is greener on the other side and may be there isnt even a best solution to all problems...

Life is fair to me because i have still my family, my gal, good friends i can truly turn to when in need and the contentment and appreciation at all the things that i am experiencing as of this moment... But if one fine day those are taken away... would i still feel this way i feel about life itself? I beg to defer...

The above is seeming a chuck of very contradicting words... But they are at least as real and as contradicting as my world that i live in... Please do share it with me...

"Others say the blogging world is for sad, deluded, self-absorbed and frustrated writers"
"...we are really happy people...wow what a beautiful world i live in" (Xiaxue)
(Sunday times 15/08/05)

I would not defend either notion... because to do justice to one is to infact commit a heinious crime on the other... Both notions are very much true and to be defensive when negative words are put forth would really shortchanged the way we all should look at the things we experience...